I fucking hate how i feel now!!! Is definitely not pms because i just finish my period. Why do i always have to suffer this alone? Is always night time when i can't be strong anymore!! and it all came crushing down till i can't even say i'm fine anymore. How i wish i could really cry out loud now and release all my emotion at one shot.
I thought i could be strong so strong that this time round i won't even shed a tear because of you. I guess i'm wrong, i can't take it anymore. I shouldn't had allow you in my life the second time. I shouldn't had meet you the other day. I shouldn't had promise anything to you! I shouldn't had trust you!
Is all my foolishness to blame!! Can't believe that I'm the fool again!! ALL OVER AGAIN!! I fucking have to face this emotional breakdown all over again!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK!!!
Thank you sooo much DUDE!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010 @ 4:45 PM
Seriously i thought you really wanna start afresh with me but the next thing i know, you tell me you wanna end everything with me again! Seriously do you know what you want? Thanks your friend for making me feel that i should give it a try again but you can't make up your mind.
You told me so much and i was still looking forward maybe we can walk down the memories lane and find back the feeling we had for each other. BUT thank you sooo much of saying you wanted me because at the end of the day, you walk in my life the second time and mess it all up and left just like that and you freaking blame me for not being able to make up my mind. Thank you so much DUDE!!
Thanks for giving me hope and than smash it in front of my face!
PS:Really thank you very much for giving me a additional memory. That night, that very night! i will keep it in my heart!
You always brighten up my day!
Thursday, August 19, 2010 @ 4:50 PM
Thanks for everything dear! Thanks for being there whenever i need! Thanks for lending me your shoulder when i need! Thanks for your never fail to make me smile jokes!
Moving on and the scenery is great!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010 @ 6:09 PM
SATURDAY
Kayakingat Celestial resort till evening time... super duper tired but had a great dinner with boyboy and alan at bedok 85!!! DURIAN FOR DESSERT!! :)))Kind of had a dramatic parting at seragoon mrt station with boyboy kuku!! hahahaha... <3>
SUNDAY
Went sentosa with love ones... SAM,JANICE,YAPPY,JISMMY and KEVIN... Even thou that's some problem here and there but overall, i believe we did had fun on the day itself!! :))Had a great dinner at thai express with JANICE and SAM!! :)) Head down to woodlands for mayor's crib!! good catching up session with mel baby.. reach home damn damn damn early!! 9am the next day!! hahahaha.... it's been a long time since i had my ton-ing session with my loves and friends.. :)
MONDAY
Finally can get some time with my boyfriend in the dream but was waken up by the kuku boyboy!! but still i fall back to sleep!! hahahaha... met him at about 5pus for ndp parade at marina bay sand.. the fireworks is fantastic ppl!!! is like directly at my face man!! hahahaha... but i forgot to take video of it!! hahahhaa... than dinner and back to campsite,drove by the dad!! :)))
ps: is enjoying every single min with you kuku!! <3
I will never forgive you!
Friday, August 06, 2010 @ 2:23 PM
Yesterday seems like a drama to me... What have i done to make you to that to me? Is my life, i decide for myself! I got a shocked to know that you are actually the one!!! Don't expect me to say thank you to you!
I can't! Seriously i can't!
Wednesday, August 04, 2010 @ 10:20 AM
1 year 2 months 28 days... it ended just like that!!
Can't believe that you can just forget all that we used to share, can't believe that you forget me just like that, can't believe you fall for another girl just like that, can't believe you ask me to move on with my life, can't believe that you don't even want to think of salvaging this relationship, can't believe you don't care for me anymore, can't believe that im just nothing to you now. You might as well kill me so that all this i won't get to see and feel. I know my pain compared to yours is nothing, i will hurt myself as badly to feel for you.
if you have to be so heartless to me, than i don't see a need to love anyone like i use to love you anymore. becos at the end of the day, i will still get this sucky feeling. Losing you allow me to know that you are the one i wanna settle down with, losing you allow me to know how important you are to me, losing you i don't wish to see the morning sun everyday, losing you i dread to wake up everyday.
I can't take it anymore. im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry.. no matter how many times i say, you dun feel a thing. kill me pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All good things come to an end!
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 1:25 PM
Our ten months relationship has officially come to an end... and im sorry that our relationship don't work. Be it you or me, the both of us are at fault. Thinking back, actually i don't know what i want from you and i bet you don't know it too.. and before i can do anything it got complicated. No matter how much i don't want to let you go, i still let you go... Because it seems like i'm not a good girlfriend to you. I'm not the one that you want to settle down with. I remember i promise i won't let you go again but...... We broke up for the wrong reason wrong motive. If you want to blame me for telling your dad, i will take the blame. Your dad actually knew what is happening and i think is a basic courtesy to tell your dad we are no longer tgt. I'm sorry if you get nag or scolded by them. I can say i'm not trying to use your parents to salvage this relationship. If you want to think it that way, i will take it then...
In the day, no matter how hard i try to control my emotion, in the night it will come crushing down. Is so fast that i can't breath and i don't know what is happening. All i know was tears start rolling down my cheek. Baby i miss you... i miss the phuket trip with you,chua and nabila, i miss hugging you, i miss your house, i miss your kisses, i miss disturbing you, i miss the places that we went, i miss your nervous face.. there's so many things i miss about you but is like i have to dig a hole and bury all this...
Baby thank you! Thanks for giving me such a nice memories and thanks for giving me your parents love and adore. The necklace, watch and shoe and all.. THANK YOU Last but not least, i hope after all this we are still friend...